Feeling like me

Sometimes people come into your life who make you feel more like yourself than you have for a long time. Maybe they don’t stay around for very long, but long enough for you to remember who you are and what you want for yourself. And what you are no longer willing to accept.

I’ve had six months of being on my own sans husband and dogs. At first, I was terribly lonely and awake much of the night, troubled by the quiet house and my own monkey mind (which is a Buddhist term meaning “unsettled; restless; capricious; whimsical; fanciful; inconstant; confused; indecisive; uncontrollable;” I visualize my mind as possessing a small Capuchin monkey running around and wildly flinging feces). But as time has gone on, I’ve welcomed solitude, probably for the first time ever. And I have to say, I’m more than a little apprehensive of losing it. What is it going to be like to live with someone again?
My students have been my primary focus in the past few months, especially as we worked together on this past Sunday’s studio recital. I’ve gotten to know a few people particularly well, and I’ve found a new level of creative stimulation that I haven’t had as part of my life for a very long time. Ideas coming and going, from myself and others, thoughts on where a scene should go, where a career should go, and where life should go. It’s been exhilarating.
It makes me feel like – me. It’s not a last desperate grasping for youth; it’s a feeling of being vibrant, alive, full of possibilities. Maybe that is a feeling associated with youth, but I don’t believe it’s limited to a particular age group, and I want to hold on to it and keep building on it. It’s the way I felt when I left Baltimore, and it’s the way I feel now as I return.
Who am I? I am a singer. I am a voice teacher. I am damn good at both. I want to do both for as long as I can.
What do I want? I want a thriving studio like I had here in Milwaukee with students who absorb information like a sponge. I want to perform again. I want to have the opportunity to take these programming skills I have developed to another level and maybe do some more directing. I’d love to take the scenes showcase and turn it into a separate entity that has its own set of regularly scheduled rehearsals instead of just one frenetic weekend. (Although we’ve accomplished a lot with one frenetic weekend, if I do say so myself.)
What I’m not willing to accept? Feeling less than vibrant, less than creative, feeling limited. Walking on eggshells. Not being respected. I won’t take that from anyone, not in any situation. 
I feel like me again and me is pretty awesome. (Correction: Me am pretty awesome.)

Published by Mezzoid Voice Studio

Christine Thomas-O'Meally, a mezzo soprano and voice teacher currently based in the Baltimore-DC area, has performed everything from the motets of J.S. Bach to the melodies of Irving Berlin to the minimalism of Philip Glass. As an opera singer and actress, she has appeared with companies such as Charm City Players, Spotlighters Theatre, Chicago Opera Theater, Opera Theater of Northern Virginia, Opera North, the Washington Savoyards, In Tandem Theatre, Windfall Theater, The Young Victorian Theater of Baltimore, and Skylight Opera Theatre. She created the role of The Woman in Red in Dominick Argento’s Dream of Valentino in its world premiere with the Washington Opera and Mary Pickersgill in O'er the Ramparts at its world premiere during the Bicentennial of Battle of Baltimore at the Community College of Baltimore County. Other roles include Mrs. Paroo in Music Man, Mother Abbess in Sound of Music, Dorabella in Cosi Fan Tutte, Marcellina in Le Nozze di Figaro, both Hansel and the Witch in Hansel & Gretel, and many roles in Gilbert & Sullivan operettas. Her performance as the Housekeeper in Man of La Mancha was honored with a WATCH award nomination. Ms. Thomas-O'Meally received an M.M. in vocal performance from the Peabody Conservatory in Baltimore. She regularly attends master classes and workshops in both performance and vocal pedagogy, and is certified in all three Levels of Somatic Voicework™ The LoVetri Method. Her students have performed on national and international tours of Broadway productions, at prestigious conservatories, and in regional theater throughout the country.

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